Don't make me listen to the haunting whispers
Don't let me be lured into trance
Hurt me Abuse me Kill me
Just free me from these
Biography
Hi there, I'm the owner of this blog whereby I torture it in my personal dungeon every night for self pleasure.
Treat it nicely now, won't you? Because Only I have the right to abuse my blog.
Oh, and I'm also a 5year old freak with platinium hair and no eyes. I'm blind! lord save me!
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2:49 AM Friday, June 30, 2006
Today...
One of my batchmate is gonna leave us tomorrow, back to our hometown. She's not the first, and I don't think she's going to be the last. I still remember her as a beautiful girl when I met her during our interview. Just a bit too skinny. But no doubt pretty. A gentle girl, later I found out. With sweet smiles.
The funny part is that I had a dream yesterday. I dreamed that I've finally gone back to my home. I still can remember how happy I am that time. And then the next day, all of the sudden, I have to go back to India. And I wake up. Can you imagine that? It's like falling from a heaven to hell...
We held out a farewell party for her. I'm not really close to her Even though she's sitting beside me during classes. We are not just batchmate. We have the same aim. We stuggle hard to archieve it. And we encourage each other. That's why I can stay for so long. Like soldiers. Soldiers who fight for the same enemy. Her going really gives a deep feeling to me. I don't really know how to explain. I feel like I've lost some encouragement. I've lost something which give my courage to stay strong. Which strengthen my will.
I feel lost.
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TODAY WHILE THE BLOSSOMS STILL CLING TO THE VINE I´LL TASTE YOUR STRAWBERRIES I´LL DRINK YOUR SWEET WINE A MILLION TOMORROWS SHALL ALL PASS AWAY ARE WE FORGET ALL THE JOY THAT IS OURS TODAY
Top 9 reasons y i wana b a DOCTOR. 1. I hate 2 sleep (I'm not, I'm a pig) 2. I failed in maths (i pass my maths with flying colours) 3. I like 2 stay in school 4ever (omg=.=''') 4. Nobody cn read my handwriting (ARTISTIC!) 5. My dad hs xtra money lying (I would rather spend it on sth more...) 6. I've njoyd my life enuf i think (I NEVER) 7. I cant live w/o tension 8. I wanna pay 4 my sins and finally 9. I dont want 2 marry be4 30 (ARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! WHAT THE....???!!!)
So as you can see, I've change my layout. 'Beautiful Disaster' Cool huh? That's why I need to post something beautiful also. To cover up the last post... Simply craps...
Hope you will like it.^^
Shh, it's..here..
3:22 AM Friday, June 16, 2006
Yea, I'm sick, flu.
My friends offered me some pills.
I rejected them.
Cool, right?
You wouldn't say that if I'm in front of you.
Running nose.
My nose is as smooth as silk.
Cause I keep on rubbing them.
Argh!
Dunno what to write lar!
okay, if you find this post annoying, just ignore it.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
I WANT TO EAT CRABS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RUBBISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
okay
actually i just wanna make you annoyed.
ehem...i think i'm quite succesful oso
haha!
anyway, I'm watching a japanese drama right now, called as 'yi gong shen de yan lei'(one litre of tear).
it's about a girl having a disease called as spinocelluberrum(or sumting lidat lar), where she'll lose her motor function slowly, at first da movement of legs and hands is disrupted, later have problem swallowing, talking, writing, and finally die because of the heart muscle kenot contract...
there are all together 11 episodes. i've just watched the 5th.
"This one's the funniest joke... especially fot all MEDICAL students... . . . . . . . . Finished studying?"
... ...
Funniest joke... Seems to be the saddest joke I've ever heard before.
Yeah When am I going to finish studying? Time isn't an issue at all It doesn't matter how long will I spend on this course. The problem is...
Can I really finish studying?
Depressing.
This is only the first block(or semester), and I already felt the limit. The limit of me.
It doesn't matter how the lecturers scold us. Scolding us for not studying (hell know we DID study.) Scolding us for failing exams (you thought we want it?)
Sometimes I feel useless Sometimes I feel hopeless Sometimes I feel like committing suicide
Well, I won't
But I really don't know how to cope with that feeling
Well, thank god I still have a bunch of friends and my family to support me To be my 'lap sap tong' everytime I feel sad To be my 'lamp' everytime I have difficulties And the most important of all
To support me no matter where when how
For this, I thank you truly sincerely heartily
P.S. thx for reminding me of my dream. I won't give up^.*